Sunday, November 21
me myself and i.. - Sunday, November 21, 2004
my dae so far.. pretty cool.. hahaha..
i guess i've got so much 2 write huh.. haha.. aniwaez..
i watched spirited away on e dvd player..so nice.. watch it so many times .. but i'm still not sian of it.. haha.. but e story's so original..
i finally got my webbie music gg.. FINALLY~.. n i got my fav song on it 2.. yeesh! haha.. my cousin's r comin back on wed ?.. hmm.. wonder wad my darling cousin's r gonna gimme.. hehehe.. aaron teo beta get me a cute doggie stuff toy.. hehe..
suppose 2 visit cousin shereen 2dae.. but in e end i decided not 2.. everytime i c her at the church.. i can't help but feel so lonely 4 e rest of e dae.. seeing her doesn't spoil my dae.. it juz brings back memories tat i'm so fond of.. i wish i had done more.. everyting's still so clear in my head..sometimes i juz wish i could stop thinking abt it..i can still remember e flowers,the tears..i can't remember crying so hard 4 anyone else b4..not even when justin n i broke it off..come 2 tink bout it.. i didn't even cry over him~..
sometimes i really hate her.. 4 sitting on e stoopid railing n gg juz like tat.. is tat fair.. is anyting ever fair?.. i dunno how xmas is gonna be like..all along i've tried 2 be happy..2 put a smile on my face.. forced or not forced who cares.. so no one will know how much i'm hurting inside..but it's becoming harder n harder these daes.. i noe it should be easier instead.. i mean it's been 3 mths already.. but then y isn't this feeling goin away.. durin the melbourne trip i juz kept tinkin abt her..preeti juz kept tellin me 2 smile n not frown so much.. but she didn't know how much i was holding back e tears everytime she said tat..